a mess.

Friday, April 15, 2011

i am a mess right now. i do not know what to do but type. i really just want to scream and throw something really hard (shocking- no one really admits that they want to do that when they are upset. its taboo, but ill admit it. or maybe it is just me.) i am in the odu library crying. luckily not sobbing i am holding it together a little. i cannot sign up for classes because of the writing placement test at odu. there is a hold on my account and it will not be fixed until tuesday. i came to odu today to fix that and meet to apply for a student loan. the writing center did nothing for me and neither did financial aid. i know it may not seem like a big deal that there is a hold on my account but i was supposed to sign up for classes on wednesday. registration started on Monday, but everyone is given a certain time when they will be able to sign up, and it all depends on how many credit hours you have. (seniors go first, then juniors, and sophmores and freshman) i had my schedule planned. classes only on MWF. i am substitute teaching next year so i would have Tuesdays and Thursdays off to do so. now those classes are getting full with only a few spots left. Open registration starts this monday so basically i am not going to be able to get into the classes i need to. especially because once youre an upper-classmen, classes are not vast to choose from. you have to take certain classes and there are not many alternatives. one class i need i emailed the professor last semester to sign up and he would not let me in. is this circumstance different? i hope so. i HATE emailing professors to try to get into full classes. my schedule is all wack now and i STILL cant sign up for classes. i am so so so upset and fed up with school. please pray this all works out. i know it may not seem like a big deal and this seems like a wasted post but its a huge deal to me. how am i supposed to trust god in situations like this? i cant right now and ill admit that. im trying really hard but given the fact that i am crying in public, i dont think i am trusting him. i do not see how this will work out. im sorry lord for thinking that and admitting that. i know you have my plans and my future but this is just so stressful. sometimes, i just want to scream... right now is one of those times.

1 comment:

  1. ally i'm praying for you! i know it's hard. i'm going through the same thing and i'm so pissed at odu. they seriously do nothing to help! but know the Lord does want you to finish college. I know it's hard to trust Him right now but He has great plans for you!!


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